But... but...
A few weeks back, Kairi nailed me with a doujinbunny. This one, unlike most of the many many bunnies I get pelted with ON A DAILY BASIS, actually stuck and I've been working on it ever since.
9 pages in, the process is forcing me to think about and confront a few things about myself and my motivations.
I'm a really visual thinker. A lot of my frustration when I write comes from the fact that I SEE the characters as I plan, and the nuances of facial expression and body language make up as much as half of what they're communicating in a scene - and that just doesn't translate well to text. It's hard for me to describe the exact ways in which characters move, which drives me crazy because I love putting the words together, but in my head half the scene is visual.
Lately, I've been getting the itch to do sequential art more and more often. Catch You was the first actual comic I DID, but I've been thinking out possible comics in my head for years. Almost never with the thought of "oh, I'm going to do this", but it's always there. Then I actually did Catch You and it didn't kill me. Then I drew a half-size comic page of one of my original characters, for no reason other than I wanted to do some god damn sequential art right now.
Now I'm working on this. And as I do, my brain's also throwing roughly A BAJILLION OTHER comic ideas at me (mostly Kingdom Hearts-related, but I know that when my fandoms shift, this is going to follow). And I'm thinking back and remembering just how often I draw little cartoons and comics, how much I think in terms of panels and voice bubbles, and that webcomic Whitney I were going to do, and, and...
... I think comicking may well be my main artistic calling.
I've been resisting that REALLY HARD, because that means drawing a metric fuckton and backgrounds and dealing with page size and print and layouts and and and aaaaugh! I just wanna be an illustrator! I want to make pretty pictures one at a time, and maybe do comics just as a hobby!
Except, apparently, I don't.
... Guess I'd better start plotting out my other webcomic idea, then. XD
(Yeah, okay, go ahead and laugh. XD But it actually did take me a while to realize this. It's kind of disorienting to realize that the art that makes your heart sing and gets you up in the morning may not be the art you thought it was. XD)
9 pages in, the process is forcing me to think about and confront a few things about myself and my motivations.
I'm a really visual thinker. A lot of my frustration when I write comes from the fact that I SEE the characters as I plan, and the nuances of facial expression and body language make up as much as half of what they're communicating in a scene - and that just doesn't translate well to text. It's hard for me to describe the exact ways in which characters move, which drives me crazy because I love putting the words together, but in my head half the scene is visual.
Lately, I've been getting the itch to do sequential art more and more often. Catch You was the first actual comic I DID, but I've been thinking out possible comics in my head for years. Almost never with the thought of "oh, I'm going to do this", but it's always there. Then I actually did Catch You and it didn't kill me. Then I drew a half-size comic page of one of my original characters, for no reason other than I wanted to do some god damn sequential art right now.
Now I'm working on this. And as I do, my brain's also throwing roughly A BAJILLION OTHER comic ideas at me (mostly Kingdom Hearts-related, but I know that when my fandoms shift, this is going to follow). And I'm thinking back and remembering just how often I draw little cartoons and comics, how much I think in terms of panels and voice bubbles, and that webcomic Whitney I were going to do, and, and...
... I think comicking may well be my main artistic calling.
I've been resisting that REALLY HARD, because that means drawing a metric fuckton and backgrounds and dealing with page size and print and layouts and and and aaaaugh! I just wanna be an illustrator! I want to make pretty pictures one at a time, and maybe do comics just as a hobby!
Except, apparently, I don't.
... Guess I'd better start plotting out my other webcomic idea, then. XD
(Yeah, okay, go ahead and laugh. XD But it actually did take me a while to realize this. It's kind of disorienting to realize that the art that makes your heart sing and gets you up in the morning may not be the art you thought it was. XD)