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[fuyu]

Right on cue: as soon as I get off spring break, the anxiety hits.

The school anxiety is relatively mild, belong along the lines of "OMG! I'm behind on tech writing again! MUST CATCH UP. And I'm not sure what I need to do for Interpersonal Communication! Thank god my other two classes are relatively stress-free."

It's the life anxiety that's kicking my ass: "I still need a job; I have cons coming up! Oh jeez, and AniZona's like two weeks earlier than I thought it was, I need to hurry up with those prints. God, I need money. There's no good openings on craigslist right now, though, and none of the places I've apped to have gotten back to me, not even the ones I REALLY WANT. Oh my god, I'm never going to get a job. I'm going to live off my parents forever. Wait, I have art at Lunacon! Let's see, that should have finished up by now. I'm so lucky to have had an opportunity like that! Oh god, but what if I didn't sell anything? What if I blew my big chance? Shit, I priced my art too high, I know it! I'll never be able to make a living at the one thing I'm good at! I'm going to die cold and alone."

Add a dash of "o shi I'm turning 22 in two months" for flavor.

... Yeah, just a bit stressy.

Comments

[sister-coyote.livejournal.com]

Aww, sympathy. My version of that, senior year, was 'I'm going to wind up living in a dumpster.'

I'm confident you'll be able to work it out, though.

[fuyu]

Every time I look for jobs, I remember what you said about it grinding one's ego to powder. Because it continues to be true.

Thank you. ;_; MCC is apparently looking out for me, as on my way out of the library earlier I saw a sign advertising the Maricopa Community Colleges online job search thingit, so. Just keep truckin', I guess.

[unicorn]

YOU WON'T DIE ALONE, I'LL BE WIIITH YOU. ;_;

Seriously, though. Chill. Your art is gorgeous, and you'll do fine. And you've just got to keep looking for jobs and stuff. It's not easy to find places just like that, but you'll manage!

[fuyu]

HORJAY WE CAN KEEP EACH OTHER WARM. ;_;

Aw, thanks. ♥ I'm sure trying. At least I know I'm going to make SOME money at AniZona - I can print decent-looking stuff with minimal overhead, and I'll of course still be offering sketches...

Holy crapnuts, though, it's on the fifth. I need to get cracking on that Demyx print. And the Firefox/Thunderbird print. And maybe the samurai!Roxas, if I can...

overcommitment wut

[unicorn]

I'LL BUY YOUR STUFFS. THEY'RE PRETTY.

you'll manage~

[fuyu]

wubbles~

[princealia.livejournal.com]

THEN YOU KICK LIFE'S ASS AND LET IT KNOW WHO'S USING THE PADDLE TONIGHT <3

[fuyu]

.... I LOVE YOU SHI XD

[dragovianknight.livejournal.com]

I'd commission something else but after last time, I think that would just increase your stress levels. :-/

[fuyu]

Man, commissions are so good for the money, and so bad for the stress. XD I need to get used to drawing stuff under other people's direction, though, or I'll never make it as an artist...

Yours was really hard, though. I would open the file and try to work on drawing these characters I don't know, and my brain would just say "no." Arrgh.

[fel.livejournal.com]

*stumbles in to give you a hughump* *stumbles back off*

[fuyu]

♥

[abyssus-abyssum.livejournal.com]

You've got some of the best art I've ever seen (I still want you to do more commissions for me when you have the time/inclination), you're really funny and great to talk to (and I would do so more often or at all if my AIM would start not sucking), and I know you're going to go far. Have faith. I'm in a bad place right now too but I'm trying to stay positive. It helps. :]

[fuyu]

... allow me to introduce you to over half the artists I watch on dA sometime, Kiku. XD I'm nowhere near any description of "best".

Thank you for the encouragement, though. :3 It's frustrating trying to find the path that's going to actually GO somewhere, though.

*ogles the Riku icon, as usual*

[abyssus-abyssum.livejournal.com]

I don't know those other people, do I? And even then I wouldn't turn to them. You've got a great style and with my little "oh, do what you want" you've created three brilliant pieces for me. So what if you aren't Michaelangelo. You're really good. And you can only get better from here. It's win-win. XD

I know what you mean about that whole lost and floaty thing, though. I'm on no path right now and I'm not even sure if College is a possibility financially and such, so I'm pretty terrified of floating aimlessly for the rest of my life. Opportunity will knock, though, for all of us. Sometimes it just takes some worried, scared shitless waiting. I think.